Showing posts with label Fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Fear. Show all posts

Thursday, May 21, 2009

He Knows Where I Dwell


It has been a while since I posted on this blog due to moving to the Steele Creek area of Charlotte. Sorry. I hope some have not given up on me as a blogger. Let me know if you still read these things!
Today, the “Cross Happening” is that God reminded me that “He Knows.” I have been living mostly in Steele Creek. Lynn and the kids are still at REVILO until school is out. I have been busy getting the house ready for them (many visits to Lowe’s and many visits from workmen from Peidmont Natural Gas, Time Warner, Invisible Fence, …) and trying to reach out to my neighbors and lay the ground work for a new church.
It has been lonely when I stop to rest. Solitude is good, but I am not use to it.
Here is the passage God used to encourage me today. Rev. 2:12-13
“And to the angel of the church in Pergammum write: ‘The words of him who has the sharp two-edged sword, I know where you dwell, where Satan’s throne is.’”
There is much here but what ministered to me was – even though I am new to the city and very few people know or care that I am here to start a church from scratch – God knows where I dwell.
How is this for honesty: Even though there are over 200 people praying for this church plant and for me, even though I heard a great sermon on not worrying from Lee Shellnutt last Sunday from the Sermon on the Mount, even though I know that God must build his church – I get anxious that this church plant will not go well. That I will not see the new conversions that I am praying for, that no one will want to gather together to reach out to the lost, that I will mess it up.
God told me today – I KNOW WHERE YOU DWELL. God knows. God knows where Satan is at work. He knows that a 52 year old sinner is now is Steele Creek. I can rest, breathe and simply be faithful to His calling on my life.
Another honesty statement: It is really easy to know He knows and still get anxious. Pray that my focus will be more and more on God and less and less of what I think other people will think of me. He is the one with the two-edged sword – it is best to please Him first – don’t you think?